"Love Sick" (PG-13) and The sequel "The Homecoming" (NC-17)
Love Sick (PG-13)
"He's only been gone for more than twenty-four hours." She said to herself, but Deanna's heartached. "I miss him so badly." She thought tearfully, as she sat in her quarters, wishing he were there. Yearning to touch him and hear his voice.
Her heart felt as though it were made of crystal, at this moment. If it had been dropped, it would have broke into a million fine pieces. It felt so fragile to her.
He had left for a mission and she thought, "If I could have, I would have went with him on this mission. However, I'm needed here, on this ship, so I stayed behind." She sighed with the feeling of emptiness.
She felt so empty on the inside without his presence. She wanted him, so badly. She needed him, so badly.
Now that she was off duty, she felt her heart was breaking from his absence. She desired his company so badly. She yearned for him to be with her, so he could just hold her in his arms.
"I wish so badly he were here, with me. Just holding me in his arms, but he's not." She cried softly. "I feel so lost without him, not hearing his voice, feeling his gentle touch. All I want is him. To curl up beside him, with his arm around me."
She felt she was being very selfish feeling this way, but it was how she felt. The empty room made it even worse as she sat weeping for him.
She tried reading her messages she received that day. She tried straighting up her quarters. She tried everything and nothing took her mind off of him. She hurt so badly from his lack of presence.
The wanting, longing, yearning, and desire for his presence was so strong. No matter what she did to distract herself from missing him so much, she still felt so empty. Nothing seemed to help. No matter what she did.
"I know." She thought to herself. "I'll go see if Beverly wants to hang out in Ten-Forward. Maybe that will help."
Deanna left her quarters to see if Beverly was off duty yet. She walked down the hall determined to take her mind off of Will. When she arrived at Beverly's quarters, she rang the chime.
"Come in." Came Beverly's soft voice through the door.
Deanna entered. "Deanna, you don't look like you're feeling well." Beverly said with concern in her voice. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine." Deanna said shaking her head. "I was wondering if you would like to go to Ten-Forward with me for something to do tonight?"
"Sure." Beverly said, hoping it would give her the
opportunity to find out what was bothering her friend. "Just give me a moment to finish here."
"That's fine." Deanna said as she watched Beverly clean up from her supper and realizing she had not eaten all day. "Take your time."
As she waited for Beverly to finish, she continued to think of Will. "Why can't I stop thinking about him!" She chided herself silently. "Life goes on with or without him. I have to stop thinking of Will!"
In a few moments, Beverly completed cleaning up from dinner.
"OK, I'm ready." She said to Deanna.
The two women lift for Ten-Forward. Once there, they sat down at a table in the corner.
Deanna ordered a Chocolate hot fudge sundae, but when it came, she picked at it. "It doesn't taste the same." She thought to herself and sighed. Then said aloud, "This is so stupid!"
"OK, what's going on?" Beverly asked putting her drink down on the table.
"What do you mean?" Deanna asked.
"You don't usually pick at a chocolate hot fudge sundae like that." Beverly said. "Usually, you practically make love to it."
Deanna shook her head, not looking at Beverly and sadly said, "It's nothing. Really."
"You couldn't prove it to me!" Beverly exclaimed.
"You look very depressed and picking at that sundae like it wasn't worth eating. I know you, Deanna. You haven't met a chocolate you didn't like. Now come on. Talk to me."
"I'd rather not." Deanna said looking down at the
melting sundae. "It probably would sound selfish
anyway."
"Deanna, you can't help the way you feel." Beverly
stated what Deanna already knew.
"Yes, I can!" Deanna insisted. "I can try harder to busy myself so I don't feel anything."
"Obviously it's not working." Beverly pointed out to her. "You've been busy all day and looking mournful all day long."
"Is it that obvious?" Deanna inquired looking at
Beverly.
"Yes." Beverly answered. Then insistantly said,
"Now, tell me what's bothering you."
Deanna tilted her head and looked away from Beverly again.
"I miss Will." She said softly.
Deanna looked as though she could cry. Beverly had no idea what to say to her friend, except, "He'll be back."
"I know, but I feel so lost and empty without him." Deanna replied. "I know it sounds selfish, but all I want is to be able to wrap my arms around him and him holding me in his arms."
Beverly sadly looked at her love sick friend. "I wish there were something I could say or do to help you not feel so bad. Too bad there's not a medicine for Love Sickness."
"I'm not love sick!" Deanna insisted as she looked her friend in the eyes. "I'm just wishing Will were here. That's all."
"Your sundae is now soup, you're mopping all over the place and have your mind constantly on Will." Beverly said. "My diagnosis is Love Sickness."
Deanna readjust in her seat and looked at Beverly indignantly. "I'm not love sick. I'm just lonely that's all."
"If you're just lonely then why aren't we here in
Ten-Forward having a good time?" Beverly asked. "My company not good enough?"
Deanna shooked her head ruefully. "No, Beverly. You're a good friend, it's just, I want Will."
"See. You're love sick." Beverly restated.
"I AM not!" Deanna insisted again.
"OK, then why is your chocolate hot fudge sundae now
chocolate milk?"
Deanna looked back down at the concoction. She pulled the spoon out of the liquid and watched it pour out of the spoon and back into the bowl. Then she pushed the bowl aside, deciding she did not want it after all.
She looked at Beverly with a frown and said, "I'm just not hungry that's all."
"OK." Beverly replied.
"God, I want Will!" Deanna unintensionally exclaimed out loud and ran her hand through her hair.
"Love sickness." Beverly reaffirmed.
Deanna looked at Beverly with a shocked expression. "You heard that?"
"Of course, you said it out loud." She informed Deanna.
"I did not!" Deanna denied.
Beverly nods her head. "Yes, you did. I'm trying to tell you, you're suffering from being love sick."
"Please, I just want Will here with me, that's all." Deanna insisted. "That's not love sickness. Being love sick is for teenagers and puppy love."
"It happens to adults too." Beverly stated.
"Especially when they are in love."
"Well, can I help it that I feel my heart is going to break because he's not here?" Deanna asked with irritation.
"See, another symptom." Beverly pointed out again.
"Irritableness and a feeling your heart is breaking from absentness."
"Oh, really!" Deanna exclaimed standing up to leave. "This was a bad idea. I was hoping you would take my mind off of him. Not make me think more about him."
"Where are you going?" Beverly asked in shock.
"Back to my quarters so I can miss Will alone." Deanna replied angerily.
Beverly got up and followed her. "Alright then, what is it you want to do?"
Deanna thought for a moment, then replied with a mischivious
smile, "Make mad passionate love to Will."
Beverly smiled and shook her head. "You're incredible!"
"I know!" Deanna replied, still smiling and went back to her quarters for the night.
The Homecoming(NC-17)
Deanna woke early in the morning and was antisapating Will's return from his mission. She was very excited and was wanting to give him a welcoming home that he would never forget.
The problem was the waiting. It was killing her to wait for his return. She had planned out at least the start of her welcoming him home, but how it turn out from there would be a complete surprise even to her.
She was ready for her day and was heading for the Bridge. She longingly awaited Will's return and could not stop thinking about him for a minute. She was still wanting nothing more than for Will to hold her in his arms.
Well, that and to give him the homecoming of his life. However, that would have to wait until they were both off duty.
She yearned to feel his body. His strong arms. His chest. All of him. She desired to look into his blue eyes and caress his face.
"I have to stop this!" She scolded herself. "I'm on the bridge and I have duties to perform. I can't be thinking about him in this manner!"
She bit her middle knuckle on the back of her hand subconsciously as she scolded herself. "Gods, I still miss him!" She said to herself.
"Counselor." The captain addressed her. "You
alright?"
She shook herself from her wandering thoughts and looked at him. "Oh, yes. I'm fine."
"Well, if you're sure." Deanna nodded as Captain Picard continued. "Well, then. We just met up with the Hawking and are expecting the Commander's return at any minute. Would you like to come with me to meet him?"
"Oh, gods! Yes!" Deanna thought, but then got control of herself and said aloud with a smile, "I would love to, Captain."
She had been in her own world, that she did not hear the Hawking hail them. It was then she realized she had to keep her mind on her job and off of Commander Riker.
The two of them walked down to the Transporter Room. As they
walked into the room, Deanna's heart skipped a beat in
anticipation. She wanted so much to throw her arms around him, but knew that would have to wait until later.
Will finally materialized and Deanna's heart danced. The sight of him and his voice was enough to make her feel like she could melt.
"Welcome back aboard, Number One." The captain greeted.
"Thank you, Captain." Will said and then turned toward the counselor, who was totally without words.
"Counselor."
Deanna smiled and nodded her welcome. Then she sent, "My quarters, after we are off duty."
He looked at her, smiled and thought back to her. "You have something planned?"
Still smiling, then she sent, "You'll have to come by and find out."
The captain looked at his two officers and realized something had silently occured between them. He cleared his throat and said, "Well, shall we head for the Bridge?"
"Not unless we have to." Deanna thought, still looking at Will.
Will looked at her with puzzlement. Wondering what she was up to, as he spoke. "Yes, Sir."
They headed out the doors of the Transporter Room and to the
Bridge. Deanna did not take her eyes off of him.
Once on the Bridge, Deanna spent most of the day staring at him. She wanted to show him how badly she missed him. She just could not wait until their shift was finished for the day.
As they left for their lunch break, Will asked, "Counselor, is everything alright?"
She smiled. "Yes, everything is fine now." Then sent, "Now that you're back."
Will smiled back at her and they left for lunch.
During lunch she ate a good meal and Will watched her. She closed her eyes and savoured her dessert with enthusiasm.
"Mmmm!" She groaned. "Oh, this is so good!"
"Deanna, you're doing it again." As he looked around to see who was watching Deanna's scene with her chocolate sundae. Then he teased, "You know, you and that sundae should take that somewhere else."
She threw a napkin at him. "Oh, Will. You just can't stand to watch me enjoy eating this, can you?"
"Well, I could think of other things I'd liked to
watch." He continued to tease her. "So, did you miss me?"
"Oh, would I love to show you just how much." She thought seductively. Instead she answered, "Not too much."
"Really?" He said with a raised eyebrow.
"Well, you will just have to come by my quarters tonight to find out." She replied with a smile. "Won't you?"
Will chuckled. "I guess I will." Then thought, with a smile, "She's definitely up to something."
Later, that evening, Will came by Deanna's quarters after they were off duty, as she requested. He rang the chime and Deanna answered it personally.
She was dressed in an off the shoulders white dress. It was
sheer, but covered her well. Still leaving everything to the
imagination.
She smiled and said, "Come in, Will."
He entered and as soon as the doors closed behind him, he found himself in Deanna's intimate embrase. She kissed him with more passion than he could remember. She probed his mouth with her tongue.
When they broke for a breath of air, Will asked, "Is this what I get for going away?"
"What do you think?" She said in a sultry voice.
"Well, maybe I should go away more often, if this is what I'm going to get when I return." He replied with a grin.
She kissed him again and then practically tore his shirt off of him. Once she had removed it, she gently caressed his chest with her hand. Then she teased one his nipples with her tongue and mouth.
"Mmmm!" He groaned. "You know you could drive me to insanity."
She smiled as she looked up at him and said, "That's the intention." Then she continued by slowly moving to the other one and teased it the same way. She was driving Will mad with desire now.
"Oh, hell!" He said. Then he scooped her up in his arms and took her back to the bedroom as she held on to him with one arm wrapped around his neck. The other caressed his chest, lovingly.
He gently laid her down on the bed and kissed her with just as much love. He slowly moved down to her neck. He gave her sweet kisses and gentle love bites along the way, as he surreptiously removed her dress.
Deanna moaned with antiscipation and unbridled desire. However, just before he reached his distination of her breasts she pushed him over on his back and teased his chest with her mouth and tongue.
She slowly moved down to his stomach as she teased him. Then she tore his pants off of him and seized what she desired most with her mouth. She caressed it with her hand as she kissed and licked it.
She caressed his mind with her heartfelt love and passion. He moaned softly from her loving touches.
Finally, she swallowed him with her mouth. His excitement grew as she continued showing him just how much she had missed him.
Satisfied, she moved back up his body kissing him all the way. Devouring his mouth once she had reached it.
She paused long enough to say, "God, I love you!"
Will did not need anymore encouragement. He turned her on her back, returning her favour and showing his affection for her.
He massaged her breasts as he savoured her mouth. Devouring her with his love and she moaned softly as he moved down to her neck. She tilted her head to allow him access. His gentle love bites drove her mad with desire.
He was insane with consuming her body as he moved down to suckle her breasts. He teased one with his tongue as he alternated between suckling and teasing her breast. As he caressed the other at the same time, she arched her upper back to get closer to him.
When he was finished stimulating one he moved across to the other side with kisses along his journey to the other. Then he reversed the process of caressing and suckling.
Slowly and lovingly, he moved down her body, caressing her with his lips. Savouring every part of her body as she was in no hurry to rush their expression of love. She was not wanting to rush anything, but rather savour every second of their affection to each other.
Her loins ached for his attention as he came closer and closer to her area of passion. He kissed and licked one of her inner thighs and then the other. Sending shivers through her body. She longed for his attention and once he reached her point of desire with his tongue, she groaned her gratitude.
"Oh, Imzadi." she moaned out breathlessly.
He stimulated her pleasure point with his tongue and then he
moved his tongue a little lower and explored deep with in her. As he explored her, he caressed her desire with his finger.
She felt his movements within her and moved her hips slowly.
Enjoying his attentions immensely. So, much she could feel her spasms of excitement.
"Oh, Imzadi." She cried aloud and in his mind.
"Oh, gods!"
She could not remember when she ever had it this good. She felt as if she were in heaven as he explored her with his tongue and drove her to a point of no return. He moved in and out of her, arousing every nerve of fervorant longing.
"Oooo, Will!" She lamented her song of pleasure.
She was going mad with desire. She now felt she had to have him, but yet she wanted this feeling to last forever. She wanted to prolong their adoration for each other as long as they could. Not wanting it to end as she felt herself contract from the pleasure.
"Oh, please!" She gasped as she continued her
expressive motion with her hips. "Don't stop!"
He went back to teasing her focal point with his tongue as he now explored her with his fingers. Deanna felt her lower body spasm again from the gratification her nerves were sending through her body.
Deanna gasped for breath as she vocalized her gratitude to Will. Now, she wanted even more of him as she arched her lower back towards him when he reversed his tactics and was again probing her with his tongue. Driving her to insanity with his caresses.
Every nerve in her body was on fire as she tried to get him to move back up, for she wanted even more. She wanted his body close to her. She wanted to join with his body as one.
He slowly moved back up the same trail he came down. His
movements were becoming torturous, for she felt the urgency
within to have him. Once his mouth reached hers again she
devoured him with hers as they joined their bodies.
She let out an audible sound of delight as they joined. Her
excitement was peaking again, as was his, but both wanted it to last, trying not to rush it.
However, that was not to be. Will's movements quickened and
Deanna's excitement carried her to heaven and back again. Will was also reaching his height of pleasure as their paced became even faster. Deanna reached her platueau once again. They cried out each others names as they both reached a climatic end at the same time.
Will collasped above her, trying not to put his full weight on her. Deanna wrapped her arms around him, holding him close to her.
Will finally rolled over onto his back, pulling her with him. He craddled her in his arms. Both had smiles on their faces and Will kissed her gently.
"Mmm." Deanna replied. "I love lying in your
arms."
"I love holding you." Will replied.
"You're all that I need." She said with a smile and snuggled closer to him. "When you hold me in your arms, I feel like I'm in Heaven."
Will smiled and kissed the top of her head. Then they laid in each others arms and enjoyed each others company. Both happy and content.